Better

Today I felt grinningly good about. I kept 7A in at recess. I told them if they wasted my time, I would take theirs, and then I proceeded to teach through recess. Everyone says it will make them behave better tomorrow. I am not convinced, but I do think that its nuts to keep in a class on the third day, that all the other classes are terrified of me, and that maybe this made them be able to tell something, I'm not sure what.

I'm having a hard time getting right the student-teacher dynamic at lunch, advisory, and each class, and figuring out when to act what way in order to set the right tone. I terrified two of my classes by starting out really firm and strong, by making them wait in the hall until I was ready for them, and I'm getting used to the way that feels, but not liking it.

I fell into the trap of over-estimating my highest class because I knew they were high, and my lowest class because I knew they were low. Nobody should tell me those things, because honestly I did the same exact thing with 6 classes and the ones who did the best, were the most thoughtful, and got the most out of it were the low level classes, not the ones everyone thinks are smart.

I got to school at 6:40. And now I've stopped moving, realized I have a lesson already for tomorrow, and started to get that I'm exhausted and need a break and am thinking of skipping dinner and everything and just going to bed now until morning.