Suspended

5 of my students.

One called me by my first name, 4 were generally disrespectful of me, my class, the subject, etc. I don't feel at all bad about the first one, but a little about the other 4, who I couldn't even tell them the words that they said and the things that they did exactly. What none of them know is that the administration wanted to suspend the whole class, but I asked them to back down and just do the one kid who was absolutely not ok.

I felt bullied, today and the other days that we start class that way. But I feel like I have to figure out a way to teach them, since these first three weeks are hard. Really hard.

They applauded me in the teachers' staff meeting, because they were so impressed I had backbone. But I don't feel like I was nearly consistent enough, or good enough, or anything enough.

At the very least, I am not letting it color the rest of my classes, which I have been having a good time with, and while I wish I were stronger, that I wasn't needing to fight a war, I am hoping already to just win and be done with the whole stupidity of the first few weeks...